I'm very late in the game-the game of being financially responsible. For the last 3 years I've tried to improve our finances. I've had some successes and some failures but it's really hard when I was so irresponsible for so long. I'm never going to be able to "catch up" to where we could've or better yet should've been. But that is water under the bridge and no amount of guilt is going to replace those funds. So I need to continue putting on my big girl pants and do I mean BIG GIRL pants.
As far as I know no friends or family members know I have a blog so I will vent here a bit. I've heard a few times within the last few days of "I can't afford" or "that is too expensive". This is from a family member that we assumed had loads of money because we were told they had been making six figures for years. You could knock me over with a feather.
Well today at work I had a mini meltdown. Everything just hit me all at once about the death of my sister in law. I had to leave work early. I was so upset and crying. I went to see my husband at his work. He met me in the parking lot and we drove to a nearby park to just sit and talk. I told him straight up that we have to be even better with our money because I never want him to say that he can't afford to do something important (funeral related) in the event that I died first. Yes we have insurance but that can take a long time to get.
I want to say thank you to CTMOM, Sluggy and Brenda from coffeeteabooksandme.blogspot. Your blogs are very informative and give someone like me the inspiration to do better.
Please if you feel so -pray for my brother and his sons and our family at this really difficult time.